So, please…just stop asking me about it na. I already told someone (Ate Euki ) about the whole story, right from how it started, from the smallest to the biggest details…Nakakapagod ulit-ulitin e…Atsaka, do I owe everyone an explanation? Basta yun na yun, let’s just leave it at that. What’s done is done, it’s all in the past. I’ve learned a lot from it, as in A LOT Kasi the more I talk about it, lalo ako naiinis…and I don’t want that. I just want to let it go. Even the guy doesn’t know that I know “stuff”, the real deal behind. All he knows e naniniwala ako sa mga sinabi nya. Okay na yun, there’s no use naman e. Bottomline is, I know..yun na yun. Ayaw ko na isipin, kasi tapos na. I just want to let it go, bahala na si Lord. Tsaka hindi healthy maghold on ng grudges kakastress…mamaya magka-cancer pa tayo! hahaha!

Tsaka, it takes two to tango (or three…even more! hahaha! Who knows kung ilan pa. haha), so malamang may kasalanan din ako. There was this time na I didn’t talk the whole time, cold treatment, cold war kung ano man yun…sino namang matutuwa dun, di ba? Haha! At some point, liable din ako. Besides, let’s face it, tulad din ng sinabi ko sakanya way before we started hanging out, it’s not such a good idea, kasi hindi nga kami jamming (sabi rin ni Ate Fei). Pero sabi nya, good idea. So, I gave it a shot, took a risk, it didn’t work out…okay lang Shit happens. Kaya nga kahit during that time, most of the time iniisip ko, ayaw ko na. Sinasabi ko nga kina Dwight, hintayin ko na lang na sya yung unang bumitaw…pero ako nananabang na ako. Kasi hindi na sya healthy, sobrang complicated pa…tapos he’s been taking me for granted na. Naisip ko rin na baka bumpy road, tough time lang…kaya ayun nga hinayaan ko sya ang magdecide, ako nakaabang na lang what could/would happen next. Kaya nga nung finally nagtanong na ako, nagsalita na sya, parang “relief” yung nafeel ko, siguro may onting sadness…pero more of relief. I raged lang nung Fei told me stuff he told someone else. Parang, WTF?! Pero tapos na yun, I have let go of that na rin. Care bears what they think. God knows what really happened. Kakastress lang na ipagtanggol ko pa side ko e. E I don’t even hang out with those people, I just see them “around”. Di ba? O sya O sya, 3 entries in a day, OA na! haha