toinks. toinks. toinks.

I just got off the phone with this guy I met last month. And he calls me “babe”!! WTF?! Okay, we met thru a friend, watched Transformers, had dinner…and now he calls me babe?! I just went out with him once, for pete’s sake! And it wasn’t even a date! Sakit sa veins! None of my 3 ex’s ever called me babe. Well the last one, baby…pero babe?! Do i look like a pig to him??? Seesh.

Actually, it’s been a while since it happened, some time in March. If he wasn’t a good friend, he was someone fun to hang out with. Honestly, before anything else occurred, I wasn’t really planning on having anything like that to do with him – romantically, sexually, whatevs. Kasi obvious naman na he’s up-to-no-good as a boyfriend, pabling-pabling. Well kung di man friendship, at least network (hindi naman networking pyraming chuchu), connection…gets mo? Basta, dagdag kilala! But one thing led to another, and it was pretty fast. From being acquaintances, to dance partners, kakulitan, to being in a relationship, if you can even call that a relationship. Anyhoo, nung una, I was regretting knowing him AT ALL. But looking at the mirror right now, what I’ve gone through with what I experienced from that earth-shaking episode or chapter in my life, it has somehow made me stronger. Kasi di ba as most of you people out there who know me well more than others, masyado akong transparent and honest with how I feel that some take advantage of it. Ngayon kahit papaano I can act out the opposite of how I really feel. I can show na I don’t care at all, even if deep inside nanggagalaiti na ako. Well, Jaja had a role with that din pala, she taught me how to do it e. And I’m forever thankful for that, hun. Siguro downside is I’ve been in touch with the wild child inside of me. Kasi when I went through two break ups in the past, kahit papano I wasn’t this way. Haha! Siguro it was my way of showing him na, “Akala mo ikaw lang?!? Aba ako rin!”. I’m not sure if I’m liking the way I turned out – I mean in that kind of way, but this is ME now…It’s either I hate myself for that or embrace what I’ve become – if I don’t, who will, right? Pero, I still have my limits. May takot pa rin ako with the consequences might be…so compared to other girls and boys, malayo pa rin naman ako…as per Direk Robby nga, may paninindigan pa rin ako with what I told them before when I just met them – I can do flirting for fun (leading ‘em on pwede rin, you know konting push ng buttons), but no all-nighters, if you know what I mean…Well siguro, there can be some exceptions. HAHAHA! As in rare exceptions ;P

Alala ko tuloy when I was still with Boogie Man, the guy I had a thing with before him (hey no sex! Flirting lang!), called me “Poker face”, kasi I was ignoring him most of the time, if pansinin ko man, hindi masyado as compared to before…Ang di n’ya alam, hindi poker face yun, yun talaga yun, as in yun yun – it is what it is. Kasi I learned doing “Poker face” was after the affair with BM pa nga.

All in all, it was a painful chapter in my book, but it was a part of what I’ve become right now. I’m not as rigid as before, I can let loose a li’l bit more…and it’s fun Not as timid, but not naman super aggresive. Pero compared to my past two relationships, mas masakit pa rin yung mga yun! As in hurricane, earthquake, tsunami – all rolled into one yung mga yun e. Dahil siguro bukod sa short-lived lang, somehow I’ve learned na from my past. Pero funny kasi ang haba ng recovery period compared dun sa “during”. ATTTT…akalain mo yun, Right Now (Na Na Na) is currently playing on iTunes, “Wish we never broke up….”. Well, there still are times that I wish that, pero mas lamang na ngayon yung moments na I think that I’m better off. Just like what I always tell myself, as well as other people, God let things happen for a reason. So this happened for a good reason. Whatever that is, someday I’ll realize that din. So for now, sabi nga ni Sef, there’s nothing to do but to “suck it up”, endure what it is, until it’s over. Because it will be over, this too shall pass. ;P

And if only I could turn back the hands of time, ala-Curious Case Of Benjamin Button, I’d rather have him as a friend, and should’ve stayed that way. I think he’d be a good pal, and the worst guy I’ve ever been with…so far. Sayang no? As what I tell my friends who want to hate him bec of what happened – Don’t hate him bec he can be a good friend, sablay lang talaga siguro as a boyfriend.

I’m just glad my happy wide smile is back again. And I only realized that when Steve asked me about it…ano raw meron. Kasi nga di ba since BM, chenes smile lang, napilitang smile at matamlay ako. Sabi nga ni Alex, I’m the most energetic (lively chuchu) person he knows, tapos ganun ako…so there’s something wrong daw. And I can dance hyper again! YAY!! Sana lang wag ma-jinx

Please, puso…MANAHIMIK ka muna! Options-options muna…Alam ko ‘di ka pa marunong nun, pero kaya natin matuto nun…pinagaaralan na nga natin di ba? Mapi-PhD din natin yan!

I’m sticking to the saying, wag manghinayang kasi madaming iba d’yan. At itatapon ko na ang usual na sagot ko na, “Madami nga, but he’s the only one I want…” Dahil marami d’yan talaga. And if that person was dumb enough to walk out of my life, I must be smart enough to let him go. Bec if a person wants to go, there’s nothing in this world that we can do to make them stay.

Sabi nga ni Mark Baquiran, MAGSMILE SA BUHAY!

PS.

It’s not that I’m condemning him as a bad person, at ganun na sya talaga. I still believe that a person can change, with the right person, for the reason/s, people change. I mean for the better, kasi given na yun na nagbabago tayo, tignan mo ko..for the worse nga lang hahaha! And I still wish him good in life, if not the best. And I hope that time would come for him pretty soon…even if it wasn’t with me.

As I promised Aram, my weekend escapade coming up next!

When they were told to think with their heads, akala nila yung sa baba. TSK!

Ay inantok ako bigla..I’ll update this later.

emotional stress + alcohol = f*cked up

Okay, yeah i planned to get drunk and wasted…but not THAT wasted. Ending up in a hospital and may IV pa, eeeek. Not fun at all. Pero lesson learned na yun…masakit yung pagkainsert ng IV cath e!

We went to there to have breakfast, but even before sitting, I ran to the ladies, and wasn’t able to get up na. So they brought me to the clinic…and the next thing I know, I was brought to room 519 na. I was throwing up from morning til afternoon so I was brought to the nearest hospital…miserable talaga! Sakit pa nga ng IV site e..:(

As usual, di mawawala, patawang eksena. When the nurse was about to insert the butterfly na, todo tawaran and ekek kasi takot ako sa needles, etc, that everyone outside daw was laughing at me. Tapos I just replied, “I don’t care!”. I was like a 5-year old girl bwahaha! Pag usapang ospital at ako, naku.

I missed my bro’s bday tuloy, may family affair dapat…absent ako. Actually ang concern ko more on the food e. Sayang! Haha!

Anyways, thanks to my dear dear friends, for staying with me kahit na nagenjoy kayo sa spa w/o me. Boohoo. And i even missed the breakfast at Circles. Boohoo again! Basta SUPER DUPER THANK YOU for not leaving me lang kung san, and for not taking me home kasi lagot. To the staff of Makati Shangri la, for carrying me haha, for the wheelchair and special treatment teehee, esp to Joanne, the nurse at the clinic Grabe room 519, so memorable! And to Dra. Anna Liza Velasco, MD of Makati Medical Center.

Dx: Gastritis – is an irritation of the stomach often caused by medications, alcohol, caffeine, nicotine, spicy or acidic food, skipping of meals, and emotional stress. Sx of gastritis include stomach pain concentrated at the upper portion of the abdomen sometimes felt as crampy, spastic or burning sensation, indigestion, nausea, and vomiting. Many pt’s with chronic gastritis or ulcers have been showed to be infected with bacteria (H. pylori) and require special tests and possibly antibiotic Tx to cure their condition.

Tx includes avoiding the substances mentioned above that are known to cause stomach trouble. Aspirin and other inflammatory medicines such as ibuprofen, naproxen, and mefenamic acid, can be highly irritating. Medications used to treat gastritis can include antacids, acid blocking medicines (Axid, Prevacid, Losec, Nexium, Zantac), and medicines to control vomiting.
Stay away from spicy food, alcohol, acidic fruit juices, softdrinks, chocolates, coffee, tea, milk and milk products.
Don’t skip meals and manage stress appropriately.

Sx of gastritis usually improve within 2-3 days of starting treatment.

Rx: Lansoprazole (Prevacid) 30mg, #5, q.d., for 5 days
Domperidone (Motilium) 10g, #9, AC

wala lang, share lang…para di matulad sakin. hehehehe. Ang saklap, dami bawal

*ala Hayden Kho* *gasps* LOL

I love SPRING *grin* (Sa mga nakakaalam ng “spring” na term nating mga vakloooosh, hindi po yun yun…as in spring the season itech. Haha! Muah)

Omigawd! As in ooohhh-maaaaaay-goooolaaaaaay!! Have you seen (sneak peek lang ) the MAC Sugarsweet Collection?!?!?!? yummy!!! Buti na lang I’m not eyeing anything from the Hello Kitty Collection so I could save up for this up and coming collection. Well, maybe the brush holder and some brushes Let’s see if I chang my mind once they arrive. HAY! juice-ko-day! Good luck na lang when we could get a hold of these beautiful stuff, bec. we all know how late these collections arrive Manila. Kainis no? Wish ko lang I would be able to go someplace else where I could get them on time. *Ehem Coolai, mareeeee help me make it happen, please? hihi* Like Canada? Hihi. Grabe buti na lang din my skin reacts on mineral makeup so my hands are off the Grand Duos, though they look really nice sana no? Parang I’m lemming nga to buy one, two, three, or all of ‘em.

Anyhoo, back to the Sugarsweet Collection. Aren’t the lippies so pretty? I’d like to have all of the lipglosses, all four of ‘em. They look sooo kiddy yet gimmicky. And the lipsticks…oh my, somebody stop me! For now, I’m eyeing on Bubbles and Lollipop Lovin’ already. And the shadesticks!!! I want them ALL! *evil laugh* Looks like somebody’s gonna be broke. Well, broke naman na talaga ako now palang! LOL Ambisyosang vanidosa kasi ako. As per Chelsea, self-proclaimed ako, self-confessed with my bad habits. LOL As for the eyeshadows, I’ll think about it pa…esp the MSFs, kasi nga I am somehow allergic ata to mineral makeup. Pero when Mikee (of MAC, Makati) used MSF on me naman as contour, my skin didn’t react badly naman..so hmmm…yikes. Hay, how am I gonna save up on building my MAC brushes? Gusto ko bilihin lahat in full-size. Gotta work harder talaga to be able to keep up with lemmings…kundi megagollywow na sleepless nights ito!

Last Sunday, when I had my NC40 exchanged with a C40 (wrong shade pa rin! Too dark! c30 or c35 siguro), I went downstairs, to Essenses and checked out the NARS counter. HAY! megagollywow HAY talaga! I was able to try out NARS blushes in Dolce Vita and Luster, and they are divine! As in! They looked good on me. Harhar. Seryoso. Parang Dolce Vita ang sagot sa frustration ko with MAC Pinch o Peach, which they changed the formulation. Buti na lang I had enough self-control and Thank God I haven’t slept, and was too tired and hungry na rin. Tapos Amour, Torrid, Mounia looked sooooo lovely on the pan, parang I wanna get them din. So many blushes, only two sides of the cheek…tapos same color pa each cheek. Wahahaha. Buti na lang out-of-stock Dolce Vita lipstick and lipgloss..kundi naku, yun baka di ko mapigil kahit na ang weird talaga ng smell ng lipglosses nila.

Hopefully, the NARS shipment won’t arrive at the same time with MAC’s Sugarsweet, kundi, patay tayo dyan! And sana, new formulation of the glosses na rin ang dumating by then. I was supposed to get a gloss nung weekend pero I don’t like the smell. The very reason I rarely use my NARS glosses. MAC kase smells chocolate-y. Yummy! NARS lipglosses are less sticky nga lang, and I like the colors better. Hehehe.

This is what I’ve been busy with lately At least productive na!! And earning, of course I’m sooo happy.

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1. What did you do in 2008 that you’d never done before?
Haha! I’d rather not mention it here. To my closest friends, alam n’yo na yun.

2. Did you keep your new years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
No. I never kept any of my new year’s resolution naman, so pointless magkaron for 2009 haha

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Yup

4. Did anyone close to you die?
Yes

5. What countries did you visit?
wala! none, nada

6. What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?
patience haha

7. What date from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
July 5. La lang. Sagot sa #1

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
I graduated from being an SSB. ECHUS! inde ;P 63k com ;P

9. What was your biggest failure?
lovelife.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Yes.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
My MacBook

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
mine! joke lang

13. Whose behaviour appalled you and made you depressed?
ex, boylets, boytoys of the yr…friends who betrayed, etc

14. Where did most of your money go?
FOOD, shoes, makeup, clothes

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
encashing my com ;P

16. What song will always remind you of 2008?
going wrong armin van buuren hahaha

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? happier this year
ii. thinner or fatter? fatter
iii. richer or poorer? poorer!!!!

18. What do you wish you’d done more of?
Sleep haha

19. What do you wish you’d done less of?
Procrastinate.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
Spent Christmas day by watching Anne of Green Gables…lahat yun! at bonggang kain

22. Did you fall in love/like someone new in 2008?
Yup. Naloka ako this 2008!!!

23. How many one-night stands?
one..este NONE kinabahan ka dun no? hahahha

24. What was your favorite TV program?
Gossip Girl pa rin

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
I don’t hate anyone

26. What was the best book you read?
Psychiatric. Joke!! *SALLY books ko hehe*

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
None. hehehe

28. What did you want and get?
Dami e.

29. What did you want and not get?
matinong lalake…hahaha!

30. Favorite film of this year?
Di ko maisip…anu-ano ba napanood ko from january? dami e

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
partey! 21

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
ewan

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?
i wore a lot of dresses

34. What kept you sane?
friends, food, family, fashion hahaha

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
none

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
none hahaha

37. Who did you miss?
secret

38. Who was the best new person you met?
ewan ko…dami ko nakilala this year

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008.
Walang bf material/bf potential kaya manlalake na lang ng bonggang-bongga.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
going wrong pa rin!

Yung funny, makulit, madaming baong jokes na bebenta sakin. smart, kahit street smart keri na. matangkad, sweet. sana yung walang sponsor na bading. hehehehe. keri ko pa babaero, naman…wag lang bading. yung madali ayain kung saan-saan. movie  buddy, shopping buddy (echus. pauso), foodtripping buddy…dali game na!

tulad nyan, bored ako, wala ko maaya! nakakainis…nangangati ako itext si “san ka”…pero NOOOOO inde pwede hahaha. major EWWW yun.

Oh finally!!! Three weeks ago, I realized, 100% clear na ko. No more Big virus. As in. Yay!!! Or is it four weeks already? Whatever, I’m happy that I’m finally free!

I’m so bored at home, nothing else to do..ito na lang

“Pag hindi ka mahal ng mahal mo wag ka magreklamo. Kasi may mga tao rin na di mo mahal pero mahal ka… kaya quits lang.”

Wala ba yung mahal mo, mahal ka rin? Quits din naman yun di ba? Hahaha! Gumaganun pa! E sa wala eh. Ganun talaga ang buhay. Di na raw uso yan e. Hay. Naalala ko ang mga famous line na…”Eh pakealam ko sa ibang yan, isa lang na gusto ko rin, yun lang…kiber na sa madaming iba..aanhin ko sila.”

Alam mo ba kung gaano kalayo ang pagitan ng dalawang tao pag nagtalikuran na sila? Kailangan mong libutin ang buong mundo para lang makaharap ulit ang taong tinalikuran mo.

Ay nako Pareng Bob Ong, kaya nauso ang Facebook at Friendster e…at ang search button. Hahaha! Kung wala dun, may directory, o basta be creative. Pwera na lang kung taong gubat yan, di mareach ng technology. HAHAHAHA!

– Huwag mong bitawan ang bagay na hindi mo kayang makitang hawak ng iba.

Oo nga, sabay binitawan na, pag nakitang happy sa piling ng iba, tsaka aapila. For what? Wala lang, gusto nila miserable ka lang…bawal maging masaya. EPAL e.

– Huwag mong hawakan kung alam mong bibitawan mo lang.

Hay nako!! yung mga pafall, paasa effect, yan yun! Mismo!!

– Huwag na huwag ka hahawak kapag alam mong may hawak ka na.

Mga 2/3/4/or more-timer. Di makuntento sa isa. Pag nabisto, lulusot at lulusot, di naman kasya! Actually, mas maganda yung naisip ko kanina, kaso di ko na maalala ngayon. LOL

Masasabi ko lang, wag na tayo umasa sa matinong lalake dahil wala na yun. Para silang dinosaurs, extinct na! AGREE? Hahaha!

In My Opinion…IMO

The Experience

It gives you fake feelings, fake happiness, fake everything. You may even think you like someone while you’re at it when you actually don’t, that you’ll realize after it wears off.

It’s easier to lie. If one finds it hard to lie, it would be easier for the individual to lie even looking straight at the other party’s eyes…As in!

So there, now I understand…Hmmm…fake feelings huh? So when someone deliberately confesses their undying devotion to you and you know they’re at it, naku, walang kurap, wag ka maniwala! Just tell them that you wanna talk about it when they’re sober. At lahat ng sinabi, lahat ng ginawa kisehodang binaliktad ang bubong ng kinaroroonan nyo, DEADMA. Kasi hindi mo alam which of those are true, at hindi. So just to be on the safe side, wait till they’re sober. as in sober ha…hindi yung hangover ;P

IMHO, parang its not worth it, lalo na yung aftermath…worst talaga. Few hours of those fake thingies tapos longer dusa? Naah…Mas gusto ko na yung natural high. Kilig sa crush, above average retdem/oral revalida, new shoes which perfectly fits, good laughs with closest friends, spending QT with the family ng walang away. LOVES IT. Wala pang aftermath chuva chenes baboosh!